Bored with church.

November 21, 2011

google just taught me that the lattin root of the word religion means to tie down or to bind up. that doesnt seem like a very enjoyable experience.

I dont know maybe its just because I still havent grown out of my hard to entertain teenager stage, but these days ive noticed that im exceptionally bored at church. Ive always been one to ask the why quesions. kind of like an annoying little kid i sat in church this sunday just asking myself why questions and answering them. I started by asking myself why am i at church? my answers were varried but they all really just went back to one reason, because im expected to be there. and then i ran through the list of people who espect me to be at chuch. My list was extensive, i figured most of the people i knew are on that list.  even my own name was on the list.

I expect myself to go to church. I also expect myself to sleep tonight. that dosent mean im going to enjoy it or that its going to go well.  Its just something that that i do.  actually most nights my sleep is just normal not good not bad, pretty boring actually.  its the same thing every night. around 10:00 i’ll go to bed and be unconcious for the next 8 hours or so then il wake to start a day that will definitly be less predictable than the night was. some days are exciting, even exilarating at times. but the nights when i sleep are always the same, close eyes, drift off  and then wake up.

thats usaully how i feel when i go to church its day time but I get there walk in the door and then it all kind of just passes by  for the next 3 hours and then i wake up starving. If I told most members i how i feel at church they would probly look at me and tell me that its satan trying to get me not to pay attention. but the problem is that im paying full attention the whole time but its become like reading a book that ive read a thousand times before. the following scripture seems quite relavent.

“They who are not chosen have sinned a very grievous sin, in that they are walking in darkness at noon-day.”(d&c 95:6)

surely this cant be the path to salvation, i mean if heaven is like church than im pretty sure i dont want to go. of course this has been all complaining so far so i’ll get to the point. Am i the only one who is bored at church does anyone else just not like going but still feels compelled to go? I dont think that got really cares to much if i go to church every sunday.  maybe its because i dont feel connected to the people at church. the people i enjoy spending time with are usually people im related to that might be just the problem. dont get me wrong i love the church  but man it is really boring these days. it just seems like there is only so much that the church can give me. and ive topped off. maybe thats an arrogant thing to say….well whatever.

i feel like the way to enjoy religion is not as a weekend club that everyone goes to but more of a culture that everyone lives. smells like zion to me. one reason i say that is because about a month ago in a conversation over the phone with a friend of mine from america she was asking me about the culture of the indigenous people of south africa, the zulus.  i was telling her about all the initiation rituals and the way they do marrige and other rituals, and she asked me if it was a religion. in my mind i thought no its much better than a religion, its a culture. is that how a zion comunity would be? would church on sunday even be needed in a zion comunity or would all things be done around the family altar?

im interested to hear some comments…

Journal of discourses Volume 4 p.78

It is the fashion in the world to embrace men in their faith, or a fine meeting house, or a genteel congregation, thinking, “O, what perfect order, and how pretty they look; how straight they walk to meeting, and how long their faces are during the services; how pretty that deacon looks under the pulpit; the people are so pretty, the meeting house is so nice, that we want to join such pretty people.” Such feelings will take a people to hell. Embrace a doctrine that will purge sin and iniquity from your hearts, and sanctify you before God, and you are right, no matter how others act.

Brigham young

 

 

 

 

 

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5 Responses to “Bored with church.”

  1. Rob said

    I was just asking myself the same question before I went to church on Sunday. I just kept getting more and more dissatisfied with the whole system we are in.

    “When we understand the difference between the gospel and the Church and the appropriate function of each in our daily lives, we are much more likely to do the right things for the right reasons.

    “Institutional discipline is replaced by self discipline.

    “Supervision is replaced by righteous initiative and a sense of divine accountability.

    “The Church aids us in our effort to use our free agency creatively, not to invent our own values and principles, but to discover and adopt the eternal truths of the gospel.” -Ronald Poelman

    To me, in Zion, there won’t be a set of rules to follow, such as attending church every Sunday. In Zion we will live the gospel as brother and sisters and friends. Not where we have meetings but where we meet. That’s a huge difference. Do you attend your Sunday meetings? Or do you “meet together oft” with your fellow believers? Big difference. I don’t go to a Christmas Eve meeting, I meet with friends for Christmas Eve.

    I was trying to figure out what Zion will be like in regards to its structure and I couldn’t figure it out. There is almost nothing on the structure. Turns out, the Lamanites are the ones who are going to build Zion. The Gentiles will only assist. That is why I can’t figure it out.

    • i really liked this comment . “I don’t go to a Christmas Eve meeting, I meet with friends for Christmas Eve.” it reminds me of a missionary meeting we were all siting around coming up with ideas of ways that we could strengthen the brotherhood. i couldn’t help but think it was ridiculous. i mean come on how often do you sit around with your friends and plan how you can become better friends…

    • Fusion said

      Rob, your comment: I was trying to figure out what Zion will be like in regards to its structure and I couldn’t figure it out. There is almost nothing on the structure. Turns out, the Lamanites are the ones who are going to build Zion. The Gentiles will only assist. That is why I can’t figure it out’

      ···is something i tried expounding at my gospel doctrine class a few sundays back. The reactions were implying ‘HOW DARE YOU!’ at my suggestion that a) the gentiles won’t build zion coz they don’t/have that gift b) the lamanites will c) contrary to popular pride, we are NOT israel, but are identified as the gentiles, as the title page to the book of mormon clearly states in no uncertain terms as well as joseph smith’s dedicatory prayer at the kirtland temple D&C 109:60

      • Fusion said

        I was surprised that almost all lds do not believe that. People were affected somewhat and even the patriarch sitting in the class asserted that i was teaching wrongly, saying ‘we, ephraim, are the ones who will build zion. The lamanites, it is not their calling, they will merely assist, if they are worthy’. And everyone but one or two agreed with his completely false doctrine. I stood up for the truth, but was chastised by the bishopric especially when some of the rich (we would be one of the richest wards in the country, temporily speaking- not me, i am just a musician by profession!) complained at my class where we discussed alma 5! But that’s a story for another day.

        Anyway, well said rob, i shoulda quoted you

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